Depp down in our souls I believe we all know we are made for so much more. More than what we are doing. In the present moment and often at the stage of life I am in I sometimes think I have not played our my part as well as I should have. This past year I have been part of a Bible Study that meets regularly on Wednesday mornings and it truly has been a blessing in my life. As I have heard some of the women stories I realize how far God's reach has been in all of our lives. The reality is no matter what stage of life we are in God is always calling us to grow deeper into Him.
Things...material possessions, wealth, and even success will never satisfy us. A former pastor of mine used to say, "there is an empty hole in each of us that only God can fill." I believe He sets the longings in our hearts and sets eternity in our hearts as well. When we have been entrusted with wealth or with success we should use it to help others who might not be so fortunate. I will never forget a time in our lives when Bob had lost his job, we had pretty much depleted our savings and God showed up in a big way through people at our church who paid the mortgage payment on our home and for us were truly the hands and feet of Jesus. It was hard to accept this generosity, but because we did God blessed us in that a few days later Bob got a new job.
As a young mother in the process of creating what I thought would be the "perfect family" I lost myself in the process. My dreams, my hopes, and my passions were placed on a shelf as I felt the needs of everyone else were more important than mine. I wasted a lot of time in my life chasing the approval of others, trying to fit in, but the only things it did was leave me feeling "empty." The other day one of my high school classmates posted a question on Facebook, "what were you good at in high school?" I transferred to the high school I graduated from in my Junior year of high school after having spent all the years prior in private school. I hated those last two years for so many reasons...but what I was good at was trying to be invisible.
Being invisible, striving for perfection and seeking peace had started in my early years. My parents had their own issues, a son who was always causing upheavals and I knew I just needed to be the "good child." When we lose ourselves and live according to what the world tells us we need to be, we often lose the identity God desires us to have. We allow the thoughts and opinions others have of us tell us who we are. Our dreams, our hopes, and our passions die as well.
Many years later after becoming a Life Coach I began to realize how the dreams in my heart and in yours are placed there by a loving God.. He first calls us to Himself, and then to display Him in every way to a world that desperately needs to see His image reflected. Our part in His plan is not to stay stuck, but to Trust and Obey. I have learned not to apologize any longer for how God wired me and I pray I will never have to apologize to God for not using the gifts He has blessed me with.
We have to give him the threads of our lives. When I assemble I quilt I first decide on a pattern, then choose the fabrics, cut the fabric and then sew it together. When we give God the dreams He has planted in our hearts, when we give Him our stories, our families, our friends, all that we have and all that we are...He will begin use all that we surrender for His greater purposes.
Our stories are a part of who we are. None of it is wasted in God's eyes. I love this quote by Brennan Manning: "In a futile attempt to erase our past, we deprive our community of our healing gift. If we conceal our wounds out of fear and shame, our inner darkness can neither be illuminated nor can it become a gift for others...HOPE knows that if great trials are avoided great deeds remain undone and the possibility of growth into greatness of soul is aborted."
Our ordinary everyday lives can be the place where God meets us and where we will experience our greatest success.