Daily there are numerous voices speaking into our life. Daily it needs to be our choice as to what voices we listen to. I think of my own life and all of the people who have spoken into it and am thankful that the negative voices are no longer the ones I choose to listen to.
When I began the downward spiral of anorexia the voice I listened to was the voice of the enemy who assured me that I would never be "thin enough." I remember one day feeling like such a failure because I had gained a pound...I was so upset with myself. I weighed 79 pounds and the scale had inched its way back up to 80. I chose not to eat at all that day and ran an extra 2 miles praying that the pound would disappear. It was never enough and it almost cost me my life.
It wasn't until a friend led me to the Lord that I began to see myself through His eyes. I had grown up going to church, but truly had never had a personal relationship with the God who created me. I saw my Heavenly Father as someone who I went to when I needed a favor and one who could only love me conditionally because that was how I perceived my earthly parents loved me.
As I began to see Jesus in a new way and as I read my Bible I started to understand that Jesus came to set me free...free from the bondage of not being "good enough." The expectations of others will wear us out and we will never be enough, but in the eyes of the Potter, we are enough. I have found in my own life that my greatest fear is always that others will misunderstand my heart...and therefore relationships will not be what God intended for them to be. I know the root of the struggle is the divorce of my parents and how it affected my life and I know it is also tied to my greatest strength because I care deeply about relationships. I work at learning how to not let it be a "panic button" in my life.
I have struggled with guilt in the past and from my experience as a Life Coach I know that many women do as well. I read somewhere that: "Guilt is the gift that keeps on giving." None of us this side of heaven will ever live up to the standards we set and allow others to set in our lives, so guilt becomes a burden if we allow it to. We may have messed up in our lives, but allowing others to keep us trapped in guilt or keeping ourselves in bondage to mistakes we have made along the way is equal to carrying an albatross around our necks.
When we know in our hearts that we have tried to amend a past hurt and we have asked for forgiveness from those we might have hurt than it is time to move on. God took our guilt and shame and it was nailed to the cross...allow His grace to free you once and for all.
What do you need to let go of today?